I’m really tempted to go for the FitBit Charge HR. I currently have the Jawbone UP24 and I do love it, it does give me that bit of motivation and I do feel a bit lost when I forget to wear it. The Up24 is pretty basic which has been good for me so far but I think I’m ready to step things up a notch.
Due to a bit of fraud on my account my bank card was cancelled and I’m waiting on a new one coming in, typically this happened on pay day of all days. I had planned to sign up for the gym here at work on payday, but it now has to wait until I get my card. So with going to the gym ideally 3 or maybe 4 lunchtimes of the week I was wondering if upgrading to the FitBit Charge HR would benefit me more since I will be more active and taking things a bit more seriously. I worry that I don’t really push myself at the gym and perhaps knowing how my heart rate is during workouts will help me see just now much I’m falling short.
I’ve been using the FitBit app, which uses my step data from Healthkit along with my Jawbone app. The fitbit app usually falls short on the step count since I don’t take my phone absolutely everywhere, like to the bathroom, whereas my Up24 does because it’s on my wrist. The app seems good so far and takes my food data from MyFitnessPal.
My weight loss has stalled already and I only managed to lose about 5lb so I really do need to kick things into gear. Hopefully the bank card will arrive tomorrow and I can get a fresh start on Monday.
I need to make some major changes in my life, but I have no idea what those changes need to be or how to go about finding out.
I have a vague idea of things I want to do, but whether or not that are the big changes needed I simply don’t know.
I want to make time for crochet, to stop starting projects and never finishing them.
I’d love to get back into baking, I used to love baking, not so great for the waistline though.
I need more positivity in my life. I need more brightness, both mentally and physically. I think I will change the theme for this blog, all the black needs to go. Perhaps starting some sort of gratitude board or something.
I need to exercise more, not so much to lose weight, though that would be an added bonus, but to release those good chemicals in the body.
I don’t have much time to think these days, no real quiet time. However I am aware that I am not well, that darkness is closing back in on me again.
I used to bake, crochet and cross stitch. I did these things because they made me happy, they brought me pleasure and I felt proud of the things I had made.
Today I am a wife, and a mum and a PA. I now do things for other people. I do very little for myself anymore and as a result I’m not as happy as I once was. I must assure you that I love my husband very very much, he is my rock. I love my son. I mentioned above that I was proud of the things I baked, crocheted and cross stitched, but those levels of pride pale in comparison to the pride I have for my husband and our son. He is truly my greatest creation.
I am also a PA, which is completely about doing things for someone else, or in my case four people. I am PA to four people, so if you include my husband and my son, six people. Six people, none of which are me.
I feel selfish anytime I even think about doing something for me when it would mean neglecting my duties elsewhere. These people need me, more than I need to need myself. I’m not even sure that makes sense.
Yes I play World of Warcraft, but I do this to escape this real world, to escape all these duties, to forget. I wouldn’t say that it makes me necessarily happy, but it makes me forget the “not as happy” for a little while.
I hate all the negativity in my life, and I completely understand where it comes from. It comes from me.